How many times do I have to cry leaving this fertility doctor???

So... I apparently have nothing for follicles this month... from what I understand, anyhow.. this lady makes no sense to me.. i'm getting so fed up. I took my husband this time because I am so fed up with the lack of plan.. she must have told me (3) different things today... Ugh... I had a major meltdown in a co-worker's office (who was supportive.. and I try to hide this crap at work the best I can). I wish there was a different doctor I could see... I researched.. and found that there IS another one in Lansing however he works 1 half-day per week... yuck....

in my meltdown mode... i touched base with my boss... god love her.. she completely understands... and this is a CRAZY week at work to say the least...

I reached out to my sister-in-law who has been this... and she recommended this book:
A Few Good Eggs

I went ahead and ordered "The Conception Chronicles"

God knows I need some laughter in my life dealing with this... I confused as hell... sad.. trying to keep it together...

and I think I need a month off the fertility drugs... I really need a break from this...

I've been in (2) car accidents in a month... sigh..... long story...

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Cosmic Love

Loving this newer artist (newer to the U.S.) Florence & the Machine. I can't help but get an overwhelming feeling that no matter how bad things are or could get in the future maybe....just maybe everything is going to be alright. I believe this song is trying to hit the listener's spiritual side. my interpretation, others will be different.

my happy ending ladies.

I find myself looking at this journey today and wanting to share with you what happened to me. I was going to edit the hell out of this and delete this entire thing and made a conscious decision not to do so.. why is that? Well, i know what I went through and the amount of online research I did when given many "terms" used in this blog. The "cd" and "ttc" and "BBT" and "clomid" (likely the most evil drug known to man which my body battled and fought for months), "femara" (also evil, used for cancer and ferility ladies), "prometrium" (if u somehow randomly found this in your journey, please send me a message and I'll tell u the hell prometriun is, but that the drug works) "glucophage" (another evil drug, see a trend, also used for diabetics) "IUI", "endometriosis" "PCOS" and "pain" "lonely" "sad". It's 2017. So my world...

Trying to Concieve really sucks...

Today is cd31. I took a hpt this morning & it was negative (and with 2 days until my period - it is 84% reliable so I know I am not pregnant). I'm not having the best morning. I'm sad. I knew I would be. I haven't cried yet (which is amazing if you know me). I am just trying not to think about it.. I have to do my blood test at the hospital in 2 days so then it will be official that this month has come to a terrible ending. I did everything right.. I hate pcos. i hate endometriosis. Song of the day ~ Family Tree

My home is where my story begins.....

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