Trying to remain chill...

Damn, it's HARD.... emotions are up, down & all around in wonder... they call this the 2-week wait..

I'm trying to remain stress-free. My husband will be gone for the weekend but I have things to keep me occupied. I'm going to organize our office, I didn't get to this the last time he was gone.. Netflix is sending me some girl movies.. I am going to do some shopping for some cute work skirts.. and KNITTING... I have wanted to get into my knitting again... never seems like I have the time... but I want to keep my mind occupied.. on the right things.. not on the desire to do a home pregnancy test.. Friend recommended waiting to do it with my husband.... I promised.. because if negative, I might get really emotional and be upset that I am alone...

but seriously, last time he went away, I was a wreck the week before he was heading away... Don't know why.. but this time seems more OK...

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So hi there.. i am just finishing a three-day weekend. Just doesn't seem long enough. Not feeling completely motivated to start my week because it is going to be really insane again but I know I have to approach the stress a different way. I had a good day. Went to the spa. Got my hair cut & highlighted.. I really needed it.. Also got my eyebrows waxed and something else waxed.. haha.. Hey, I'll try anything once... that's my philosophy. My husband asked me 3 times today if I ordered the fertility monitor so I ordered it tonight from amazon -2 day shipping for free... so it will be here for my next cycle.. It would be a shock if this cycle ended in pregnancy. I'm so pessimistic now.. I hope this monitor helps us with knowing when our peak fertile days are. It was nice to see him so eager for me to order this. And my song of the day: Chasing Pirates by Norah Jones.. because well, i feel this way sometimes late at night... Beautiful Lyrics: "In your message you ...

my happy ending ladies.

I find myself looking at this journey today and wanting to share with you what happened to me. I was going to edit the hell out of this and delete this entire thing and made a conscious decision not to do so.. why is that? Well, i know what I went through and the amount of online research I did when given many "terms" used in this blog. The "cd" and "ttc" and "BBT" and "clomid" (likely the most evil drug known to man which my body battled and fought for months), "femara" (also evil, used for cancer and ferility ladies), "prometrium" (if u somehow randomly found this in your journey, please send me a message and I'll tell u the hell prometriun is, but that the drug works) "glucophage" (another evil drug, see a trend, also used for diabetics) "IUI", "endometriosis" "PCOS" and "pain" "lonely" "sad". It's 2017. So my world...

Cosmic Love

Loving this newer artist (newer to the U.S.) Florence & the Machine. I can't help but get an overwhelming feeling that no matter how bad things are or could get in the future maybe....just maybe everything is going to be alright. I believe this song is trying to hit the listener's spiritual side. my interpretation, others will be different.

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