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What a week.... what stress... sigh.....


The past week has been so hard on me. So many changes at once. Too many stressors. Tears falling left and right. Too many changes at once for me to handle. Still trying to heal from my surgery. Planning on seeing an acupuncturist Monday September 15th as well as September 16th to help with my healing overall which I am somewhat frightened about. It seems with all the changes, I don't know where I am with everything and that is somewhat scary for me. All I feel like doing is lying in bed with my husband snuggling, crying, being held and taking all the changes day by day trying to move forward.

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