My home is where my story begins.....

Loving this newer artist (newer to the U.S.) Florence & the Machine. I can't help but get an overwhelming feeling that no matter how bad things are or could get in the future maybe....just maybe everything is going to be alright. I believe this song is trying to hit the listener's spiritual side. my interpretation, others will be different.

"and you say, it'll be alright.. i'm gonna trust you, i'm gonna look in your eyes. I'd follow you into the light." this song makes me cry which naturally makes it my song of the day.. I feel pretty closed off, closed down right now.. It's a rainy day in Michigan and from someone at home, who left their job 5 weeks ago for reasons I can't write about just yet, I think I will read.. I've got a pile right now. I'm reading "Heart of the Matter" by Emily Giffin who is very good.

Doesn't matter what I want..... as a social worker.. this makes me wish and then feel sad I can't save all of them... doesn't matter what I need.. or if I cry..... this song just makes me think of my job... and the people I cannot save.. no matter how much I Want too..

I will follow you into the dark... I hope to always be this close..

If there ever was a song of the day that truly TRULY depicted me, this is it....

So hi there.. i am just finishing a three-day weekend. Just doesn't seem long enough. Not feeling completely motivated to start my week because it is going to be really insane again but I know I have to approach the stress a different way. I had a good day. Went to the spa. Got my hair cut & highlighted.. I really needed it.. Also got my eyebrows waxed and something else waxed.. haha.. Hey, I'll try anything once... that's my philosophy. My husband asked me 3 times today if I ordered the fertility monitor so I ordered it tonight from amazon -2 day shipping for free... so it will be here for my next cycle.. It would be a shock if this cycle ended in pregnancy. I'm so pessimistic now.. I hope this monitor helps us with knowing when our peak fertile days are. It was nice to see him so eager for me to order this. And my song of the day: Chasing Pirates by Norah Jones.. because well, i feel this way sometimes late at night... Beautiful Lyrics: "In your message you ...

Song of the day: Fade Into You...

Which is decidedly the song of the day... A sorta fairy tale by Ms. Tori Amos. This song... as with many... has many interpretations.. take from it what you wish.. I know what it means to me. ~~~~~~~~~~ Blood Test tomorrow morning at the lab.. Can't wait to just get it over. I haven't cried - still taking the dumb progesterone pills - temp still high (DUE to those progesterone pills) and not pregnant.... I wonder why the pain is so intense month after month... I hope it won't be like that.. It was told to me it will happen when it happens... that I hope for...

Today is cd31. I took a hpt this morning & it was negative (and with 2 days until my period - it is 84% reliable so I know I am not pregnant). I'm not having the best morning. I'm sad. I knew I would be. I haven't cried yet (which is amazing if you know me). I am just trying not to think about it.. I have to do my blood test at the hospital in 2 days so then it will be official that this month has come to a terrible ending. I did everything right.. I hate pcos. i hate endometriosis. Song of the day ~ Family Tree