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Have deliberately avoided posting...


Not pregnant... again.....

already on cd 8 in my new cycle.... that last cycle was SO hard to take for me... I REALLY had hope...

i feel defeated. the tears were the hardest this time... I don't know why, it's the same EVERY month...

why me?? I want to be a mommy so bad... is it ever going to happen for me?

I hate infertility, I hate PCOS... and I HATE endometriosis...
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Jaime said…
Aww honey, I am so sorry. I know exactly how you feel. ((HUGS)), let me know if you wanna talk!
September 8, 2009 at 9:54 PM
melissaabarnes said…
I'm over it now...... I was just SO hopeful.... i finished my meds for the month already... next appointment on the 14th...

we're considering an IUI next month. We shall see....

This is SUCH a lonely process..
September 8, 2009 at 9:58 PM
Lady Caillean said…
Im sorry sweetie ((((hugs))))
It definitly feels like such a lonely road but know that we are all here for ya and know exactly how you are feeling about infertility. Good luck with your appointment on the 14th!! (((hugs)))
September 9, 2009 at 12:20 PM
Jaime said…
Refresh my memory...have you had an HSG?
What does your RE say about the IUI, how much would it increase your chances?
We are home next week. We get in Sat the 12th if you wanna come over and talk. :)
September 9, 2009 at 3:10 PM
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