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How many times do I have to cry leaving this fertility doctor???


So... I apparently have nothing for follicles this month... from what I understand, anyhow.. this lady makes no sense to me.. i'm getting so fed up. I took my husband this time because I am so fed up with the lack of plan.. she must have told me (3) different things today... Ugh... I had a major meltdown in a co-worker's office (who was supportive.. and I try to hide this crap at work the best I can). I wish there was a different doctor I could see... I researched.. and found that there IS another one in Lansing however he works 1 half-day per week... yuck....

in my meltdown mode... i touched base with my boss... god love her.. she completely understands... and this is a CRAZY week at work to say the least...

I reached out to my sister-in-law who has been this... and she recommended this book:
A Few Good Eggs









I went ahead and ordered "The Conception Chronicles"









God knows I need some laughter in my life dealing with this... I confused as hell... sad.. trying to keep it together...

and I think I need a month off the fertility drugs... I really need a break from this...

I've been in (2) car accidents in a month... sigh..... long story...

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