Today is cd1. So it's back to the beginning of another cycle. I should be hopeful, right? Maybe it's just my icky mood this morning. I just feel like crying. It's those dumb hormone pills. They really do a number on my emotions. I'm seeing the obgyn tomorrow but what can she really tell me. It's hard to be hopeful.... honestly....
Time.... I'd never imagined it would end like this. In time, something new will grow. How long will it take to feel it? I don't know how to be something that will grow right now. I hope to see the sunshine, lay down on the ground, stare up at the sky and think about what is next. I didn't think I'd live like this..... Time... growth. My days used to revolve around you... Who had a sick need to give... and take it ALL away. I look back with regret.. Why didn't I see this?? I see it all now. Every little piece. i still remember the look on your face when I woke you... i can still feel your energy.. I don't know how to be something that you'll miss.. It's your smile and love I will forever remember... I hope I am something you will miss.. I hope I made an impact on your beautiful life. I will remember the moments...
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