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Yeah, I'm avoiding you.....


I'm avoiding you. and it's a blog. it's not like it talks back to me. *Sigh* I'm losing it. Today is cd42. Yeah, i know, i know..... I'm taking the progesterone to force a period. Fun stuff. It makes my friends think I am even more nuts than normal..... not that it would take much. I need the Christmas Spirit, the joy of the season now more than ever. This stuff can overwhelm and take you over.

Our trees are decorated but the house isn't in it's usual perky self. I can tell it bothers my husband. I'm trying. I really am.

I have the day off on Friday, we see the obgyn. and hopefully i can get some christmas shopping done... wrapping as well.

I am trying. For those that read, thanks.... i love you.
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