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cd24 - just trying to make it through the week, really.


Today is cd24 - 9 dpo.

yeah, i've got some early preg symptoms...
but they are also side effects from the progesterone I take 4x daily... so I'm trying not to overanalyze... really hoping the de-stressing/not analyzing will help me ease the disappointment of AF if/when she arrives.. Sigh.

Completed day 2 of WiiActive (the program is KIND - it gave me the day off tomorrow). My upper thighs ACHE sooooooooo bad.

In other news... ahh... feeling upset with a friend today. Feel completely useless as a friend no matter how hard I try... I don't even know what to do or say right now.. Seems like all my words go unheard.. when do you know if you're wasting your time pushing a friendship onto someone that they don't even want...
Lyrically ~ this is what I want to say:


"So.......If you ever want something...
You call, you call.......And I'll come running to fight......And I'll be at your door"

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