Moving away from the topic "infertility" CONSTANTLY on my mind..... Wii Active

My hubby went out to buy this game for me today...

Supposedly, they have a 30-day challenge. I am going to commit to it. Seriously - I AM!!! If anything, it will help me de-stress in the morning!! and increase endorphins - all of which I need. I'm completely stressed all the time --on a ton of weird pills.. and I Think this could be a healthy move for me... Hubby says he will do it with me --but if he stops --I'm committed...

Reviews look good!!

I'll be setting up a profile when he gets home --after we've had dinner and all!!!

and continue my knitting as well....

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It's been 8 weeks and a day...

Time.... I'd never imagined it would end like this. In time, something new will grow. How long will it take to feel it? I don't know how to be something that will grow right now. I hope to see the sunshine, lay down on the ground, stare up at the sky and think about what is next. I didn't think I'd live like this..... Time... growth. My days used to revolve around you... Who had a sick need to give... and take it ALL away. I look back with regret.. Why didn't I see this?? I see it all now. Every little piece. i still remember the look on your face when I woke you... i can still feel your energy.. I don't know how to be something that you'll miss.. It's your smile and love I will forever remember... I hope I am something you will miss.. I hope I made an impact on your beautiful life. I will remember the moments...

that was it..

Trevor came to get me. I was frozen, really. Nothing could get me to walk out on my own. And I cried. I cried for the loss..

Today is February 9th, 2011. & this is where I am.

I'm much better. well, most days. It's been 5 months and about 10 days. I do not keep track. I try to forget the entire debacle. I miss her. I wonder about her. Today, I re-gained some of the power I had thought I lost in my heart. She told me she loved me & knows the whole story. I said nothing. I can't. But the knowing, just the knowing.. wow.

My home is where my story begins.....

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