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Friendships..


When I finally reach peace at the loss of a friendship that I shed tears for, I receive a card today in the mail.
This came so unexpectedly and I was moved to tears. The card was a simple get well message with a note inside.
I had had a close friendship with this girl.

Will I ever understand people?

I thought this was over. It's been 3.5 months.

What to do?
I'm ever hopeful and genuinely miss her... and 2 other close girlfriends I lost on the same day.

Being let go from a job with no explanation can disrupt the relationships you've developed with people.
I was there on a Tuesday.... and by 9pm that night, my office was emptied.
They knew nothing and neither did I. I hoped the friendships were stronger than the office environment but I was wrong.

Contact was made the day after.
They were shocked. and so was I.

Contact wasn't made after that day besides a few emails from the girl who sent the card today.

It hurt like hell but there was nothing I could do.

One cannot force friendships upon people.


So today.... with peace within myself that these friendships were over, I have hope.

I don't know why. I suppose it is part of who I am.

I didn't know what to do but I reached back. I sent her an email. and 5 minutes after 5pm, she texted me.

We shall see. I hope the friendship can be renewed but....... that's yet to be seen..

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