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this is where I'm at...

Today is cd12... I've taken the Femara for the month although I think I had more side effects... had some emotional meltdowns...

Parts of me feel sad. It is kind-of hard for everything to remain normal with my friends. gosh, even my parents. My dad doesn't understand. One of my male best friends is dealing with his own crap so he gets irritated with every little word I say. I'm stressed. I was in tears yesterday.

I try so hard to be hopeful. It can just be exhausting. Some of me just wants to give up.. and say 'oh well'... My husband is supportive but I know these moods get to him...

i HAVE taken up my knitting again though.. I'm working on socks... and I plan to try and make some for gifts to some of my most-loved ones... however, getting their shoe size COULD be difficult... haha.... using a Vogue Knitting Book

Am going away for the weekend with my husband's entire extended family so I will be bringing knitting to work on as the "itinerary" calls for alot of visits to wineries that I Can't really participate in because I can't even drink.

I am seeing my RE on Friday, 9:30am to have my mid-cycle ultrasound and potentially get the HcG shot...

more about my upcoming weekend away later!
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Jaime said…
Thanks for updating, I was wondering how you have been. Sorry that you will miss out on the wineries. GL this cycle!
July 16, 2009 at 5:09 PM
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