for anyone who dealt with me today when I was so emotional... that was an icky fit of tearful emotions... *sigh* Not much I can do about it... I made it to my car before crying, so no tears in my office. Today is cd8, so my 4th pill of Clomid. T was pretty supportive when he got home, he knows I can't help my mood. He was a good sport & watched (2) episodes of Gossip Girl on the Tivo... and went up to bed w/me early since I wasn't feeling well.
Time.... I'd never imagined it would end like this. In time, something new will grow. How long will it take to feel it? I don't know how to be something that will grow right now. I hope to see the sunshine, lay down on the ground, stare up at the sky and think about what is next. I didn't think I'd live like this..... Time... growth. My days used to revolve around you... Who had a sick need to give... and take it ALL away. I look back with regret.. Why didn't I see this?? I see it all now. Every little piece. i still remember the look on your face when I woke you... i can still feel your energy.. I don't know how to be something that you'll miss.. It's your smile and love I will forever remember... I hope I am something you will miss.. I hope I made an impact on your beautiful life. I will remember the moments...
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