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How I feel today.


I feel completely alone today.
Like not a soul in the world understands me.
Doesn't even feel worth it today to reach out to anyone...
there aren't many who get it anyhow..
Seems like me against the world
~
and I know now some just listen because they feel like they "have" too..
I'll pass.
That's useless.
**Honesty works so much better with me**
~maybe some people just forgot that~
Have a call to make..... hopefully can find a support group in this area for infertility.


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